© seth poticha

last chance texaco

2003-04-30 : 12:11 a.m. square pegs
mad sky like the color of forgetting
and how’s the wife these days?
the same? different?
is there a difference?
both – the landscape is killing me
not sure where i heard that
but sure i heard it somewhere
these thoughts not my own
these things i don’t own
but they don’t own me either
we all name our own price
and i don’t come cheap but i do come often
a circle or square by definition
a constant, a variable
where do i fit in –
the pictures in the dictionary look nothing like me
but nothing like me has ever tried this escape route
lonesome highway stretched like a scar across the face of probability
the probable comes out of nowhere
this routine, this anxiety,
this never ends, it only begins
over and over and over again
retreat, i fall back against the grain, am i the square peg this time,
or the round whole grain here
wherever here is it isn’t enough
holes in the sky, in the river, in the street
i live on like social acne
the acme – yes – a generic climax
and of all things – been there before
all things end of the same way,
not with a bang but a whisper
softly now speak to me using words you never heard before
never new, before, but never used before
and sat alone wondering, wandering and meandering
through and through and falling again, kicking again,
not for truth or consequences, or pomp nor circumstance
everything i see is a rerun of missed opportunities
and i’ve been backing the wrong horse
since the day i was born
can you scratch that?
are you impressed?
jesus, who the hell am i talking to anyway?
isn’t you – could be anybody
anybody but the sure thing
finished

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