of course, that's really nothing new. it seems that since we missed our deadline with the new millenium, every year is fair game for some fresh apocalypse.

i don't think my grandparents worried much about the end of the world. initially, i think they were more concerned with eating, and then by the time the war ended, they didn't know whether to shit or go blind with all this newfound prosperity.

but ever since the cold war, and the fear that we could all blow each other up at any moment, it seems as though the idea that whatever the youngest generation was at the time, would also be the last. we all believe ourselves to be the witnesses to the collapse of civil society.

well aren't we just a bunch of assholes.

it occurred to me that each successive generation believes itself to be the last out of sheer egoism, that is to say, it can't get better than this, or worse than this for that matter, and therefore we should just pack it in, end on a high note.

and then i thought, "no, that's not the case at all."

the truth is that each successive generation, while being more and more self-centered than the one before it, is also far more irresponsible.

we want the world to end with us because we don't want the responsibility of dealing with our own deaths. we look at our grandparents, sick and weak and on their way out; we look at our parents, once so idealistic, now corporatized and detached. this is not how we imagined our futures would be.

so come on, drop the bombs. bring on the alien invasion, the supernova, the meteor, the plague. anything so that i don't have to wake up sixty years from now and think, "what the fuck was that all about?"